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Tired of waiting.
Its been a month. Ive waited for him with tears. Ive begged like an idiot one. Its fucking shit hurt shit aahhh shit! Dont you know its hurt? For me, it is. For you? I dont think so. Youre so mean. So mean, man. Most of my friends told me to move on. Move on bitch move on! Stop wasting your time. Nothing worth it. And I just like.. Wtf you!? Its not that easy to move on after we had fall for someone too hard. Too hard. Hmm, no one will understand me. Even my closest friends. Yes man, Im smiling laughing like crazy but the truth is Im crying, dying, pissing off inside. All I want is you. Only you. I dont need one prince that own a big bungalow, lots of money and so whatevs. Its simple, aite? As simple as an ABC. I love you. Cause nobody can light my day. Dear Koshi.
Its kinda hurt when we love someone but that person do love someone else. And le someone else is our friend. Who used to hear your problems between you and your love one before. More like back stabbed hahh? YES ABSOLUTELY! Bitch please, shut the fuck up. Naah, just so you know. Like Ive told you before. Ive been hurted by someone. Ive been waiting for someone. Someone that will never ever appreciate me. He treats me like Im a piece of shits, like Im a trash! But yeah, I am here still standing here. I am still survive. With tears. With a little pieces of my heart. Ive been crying all day and night.
Im some sort of fucking train station eh? Noooooo. Am not. I think this is my last post for you. Today will be the last day for me to cry because of you. Ive cried like crazy just because of you. But you still, didnt realize it. Nothing worth it, I can see it by myself. But yeah, no matter what I will always standing here. Waiting for you to say, hey Farah I love you! And yes, Ill reply it back. Even youve been mem-babi liddat. This stupid ugly lil girl will always love you and nothing can change it. For now, Ill try to move on. Let fate decide our path then. Take care of your health. Take a good care of your lung. Dont forget to take meds. And please, dont take cigarettes.
Lots of love,
Frh Shmsri :')
Once in white and blue uniform..
Once in white and blue uniform? Yes, once Im in secondary school. Just flashin back le black and white, colourful memories that Ive been through. All of sudden I burst into tears. Why? Fucking miss my school. Might be lying if I told ya I miss my school right? Naah I miss each ppl in there, my girlfriends my boyfriends my friends. Yes, I got no lover in there :( What a life kan? Hehe its just enough to have girlfriends boyfriends friends by my side once there. And now. Still. Theyre here with me.
Gaah! This is our last last pieces from my dslr when we were at school. We took like thousand photos a day. Thousand photos a day? Yeah haha. Each of them still here with me. In my collections. Oh btw thats me! The one holding blue and yellow paper. Idk what Im doing -.-
Take a step back to when we were in Secondary School. The days where we had recess two or more times a day haha. Where we would purposely be mean to the person we liked. Where making friends was easier than ever. Where playing four corners and kick bottles seemed to be the best part of our day. And now, the best part of the day is just curling up in bed and reminiscing all of the good times we used to have. I miss you guys like asdfghjkl!!
With love, lil girl from pure science class.
Dear you..
Its been a week since your gone and it still hurts. Nothing has got better, at all. I never knew it would be this hard, I really didn’t. I never really had to deal with a missing of someone I was so close with.2 months of being in love with you. Now I can only write letters to you that idk youll read or not. Its fucking hard. But im not giving up anytime soon. I still feel you with me, I do. I look crazy sometimes because im sitting there and something will remind me of you and I’ll laugh and get the biggest smile on my face. Even though youre gone you still know how to make me happy, i’m still the happiest girl alive because of you. Just because your gone doesn’t mean I’m single now, no I’m still taken. I’m still madly in love with you.
I’m not writing this to have people feeling sorry for me. I’m writing this because I want you all to know every fight you and your boyfriend have isn’t anything. Don’t get so mad at each other. Don’t say things you don’t mean. Be fucking happy with each other! You never know what can happen and I don’t want you guys to go through the same thing I am. Its hard. Please I’m begging you. PLEASE appreciate each other and be happy. It will all work out. I promise.
I love you Koshi and I miss you so much. A day doesn’t go by where I don’t think of you. You are still such an amazing boyfriend. I wish you didn’t do what you did. But atleast youre finally happy. I’ll see you later on in life babe. We will have our future. Stay happy, keep smiling. Love you sayang..
By your lil elmo, Rukhsana.
A perfect start, maybe..
I constantly wonder how my life looks in other ppl's eyes. Do they think I have it easy? Do they think I have nothing going on for myself? Or are they fascinated with who I am? The thing is that no one will ever know my whole story. No one will ever know the things Ive had to overcome. Not even my closest friends, not even my own family. The thing is that ppl are so quick to judge nowadays. You only see a person from what they want and allow you to see. I always try to look as put together as I can, and I guess thats my way of hiding from the truth. Its just that way everyone will assume that everything in my life is okay. That I never go through anything. If only everyone knew how broken I am, and how Im holding on for the dear life on this one last strand thats recently become very delicate. The truth is that no one really knows me. No one will ever know me, and sometimes that scares me, because no one will ever know why I am the way I am.
Sounds creepy that I have been deleted all the older posts in this blog and and Im not so sure how many times I did this kind of thing. Hmm. The reason why I started to write here after few months leaving this blog without any mark is.. I knew, my blog will make my day better. My blog will be the one who will listen to me, no matter how many times it receive the aches from me as I keep leaving it when I own someone. My blog still here with me. This will be my random space for posting amazing quotes and pictures that relate to my life. Credit goes to the respective original blogspot.
Anyway. Im Farah. But you can call me by name, Rukhsana. Oh awkward haha. Im the kind of girl when I cry, I cry. When I fall for someone, I fall too hard. Ppl tell me Im too intense when it comes to emotions. Ill do anything to be around with the one I loved. I dont always look perfect and sometimes I get insecure. And I may have flaws. But Ill love you better than anyone else ever could.
See ya! (:
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Tired of waiting.
Its been a month. Ive waited for him with tears. Ive begged like an idiot one. Its fucking shit hurt shit aahhh shit! Dont you know its hurt? For me, it is. For you? I dont think so. Youre so mean. So mean, man. Most of my friends told me to move on. Move on bitch move on! Stop wasting your time. Nothing worth it. And I just like.. Wtf you!? Its not that easy to move on after we had fall for someone too hard. Too hard. Hmm, no one will understand me. Even my closest friends. Yes man, Im smiling laughing like crazy but the truth is Im crying, dying, pissing off inside. All I want is you. Only you. I dont need one prince that own a big bungalow, lots of money and so whatevs. Its simple, aite? As simple as an ABC. I love you. Cause nobody can light my day. Dear Koshi.
Its kinda hurt when we love someone but that person do love someone else. And le someone else is our friend. Who used to hear your problems between you and your love one before. More like back stabbed hahh? YES ABSOLUTELY! Bitch please, shut the fuck up. Naah, just so you know. Like Ive told you before. Ive been hurted by someone. Ive been waiting for someone. Someone that will never ever appreciate me. He treats me like Im a piece of shits, like Im a trash! But yeah, I am here still standing here. I am still survive. With tears. With a little pieces of my heart. Ive been crying all day and night.
Im some sort of fucking train station eh? Noooooo. Am not. I think this is my last post for you. Today will be the last day for me to cry because of you. Ive cried like crazy just because of you. But you still, didnt realize it. Nothing worth it, I can see it by myself. But yeah, no matter what I will always standing here. Waiting for you to say, hey Farah I love you! And yes, Ill reply it back. Even youve been mem-babi liddat. This stupid ugly lil girl will always love you and nothing can change it. For now, Ill try to move on. Let fate decide our path then. Take care of your health. Take a good care of your lung. Dont forget to take meds. And please, dont take cigarettes.
Lots of love,
Frh Shmsri :')
Once in white and blue uniform..
Once in white and blue uniform? Yes, once Im in secondary school. Just flashin back le black and white, colourful memories that Ive been through. All of sudden I burst into tears. Why? Fucking miss my school. Might be lying if I told ya I miss my school right? Naah I miss each ppl in there, my girlfriends my boyfriends my friends. Yes, I got no lover in there :( What a life kan? Hehe its just enough to have girlfriends boyfriends friends by my side once there. And now. Still. Theyre here with me.
Gaah! This is our last last pieces from my dslr when we were at school. We took like thousand photos a day. Thousand photos a day? Yeah haha. Each of them still here with me. In my collections. Oh btw thats me! The one holding blue and yellow paper. Idk what Im doing -.-
Take a step back to when we were in Secondary School. The days where we had recess two or more times a day haha. Where we would purposely be mean to the person we liked. Where making friends was easier than ever. Where playing four corners and kick bottles seemed to be the best part of our day. And now, the best part of the day is just curling up in bed and reminiscing all of the good times we used to have. I miss you guys like asdfghjkl!!
With love, lil girl from pure science class.
Dear you..
Its been a week since your gone and it still hurts. Nothing has got better, at all. I never knew it would be this hard, I really didn’t. I never really had to deal with a missing of someone I was so close with.2 months of being in love with you. Now I can only write letters to you that idk youll read or not. Its fucking hard. But im not giving up anytime soon. I still feel you with me, I do. I look crazy sometimes because im sitting there and something will remind me of you and I’ll laugh and get the biggest smile on my face. Even though youre gone you still know how to make me happy, i’m still the happiest girl alive because of you. Just because your gone doesn’t mean I’m single now, no I’m still taken. I’m still madly in love with you.
I’m not writing this to have people feeling sorry for me. I’m writing this because I want you all to know every fight you and your boyfriend have isn’t anything. Don’t get so mad at each other. Don’t say things you don’t mean. Be fucking happy with each other! You never know what can happen and I don’t want you guys to go through the same thing I am. Its hard. Please I’m begging you. PLEASE appreciate each other and be happy. It will all work out. I promise.
I love you Koshi and I miss you so much. A day doesn’t go by where I don’t think of you. You are still such an amazing boyfriend. I wish you didn’t do what you did. But atleast youre finally happy. I’ll see you later on in life babe. We will have our future. Stay happy, keep smiling. Love you sayang..
By your lil elmo, Rukhsana.
A perfect start, maybe..
I constantly wonder how my life looks in other ppl's eyes. Do they think I have it easy? Do they think I have nothing going on for myself? Or are they fascinated with who I am? The thing is that no one will ever know my whole story. No one will ever know the things Ive had to overcome. Not even my closest friends, not even my own family. The thing is that ppl are so quick to judge nowadays. You only see a person from what they want and allow you to see. I always try to look as put together as I can, and I guess thats my way of hiding from the truth. Its just that way everyone will assume that everything in my life is okay. That I never go through anything. If only everyone knew how broken I am, and how Im holding on for the dear life on this one last strand thats recently become very delicate. The truth is that no one really knows me. No one will ever know me, and sometimes that scares me, because no one will ever know why I am the way I am.
Sounds creepy that I have been deleted all the older posts in this blog and and Im not so sure how many times I did this kind of thing. Hmm. The reason why I started to write here after few months leaving this blog without any mark is.. I knew, my blog will make my day better. My blog will be the one who will listen to me, no matter how many times it receive the aches from me as I keep leaving it when I own someone. My blog still here with me. This will be my random space for posting amazing quotes and pictures that relate to my life. Credit goes to the respective original blogspot.
Anyway. Im Farah. But you can call me by name, Rukhsana. Oh awkward haha. Im the kind of girl when I cry, I cry. When I fall for someone, I fall too hard. Ppl tell me Im too intense when it comes to emotions. Ill do anything to be around with the one I loved. I dont always look perfect and sometimes I get insecure. And I may have flaws. But Ill love you better than anyone else ever could.
See ya! (:
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